Welcome to the Madness... I've been expecting you.

I dont understand these feelings that I currently posess. They are like a dark anguishing storm cloud hovering over my overly energetic parade.

Finally happy after a long length of horrible depression, anger flowed in my veins like lava, my spirit raged, Hatered had a death grip on my brain crushing it between its ravonous jaws, it’s drool searing the soft tissue like acid, its fangs puncturing deep making it bleed and drip slowly killing my soft innocence and gentle kindness.

Why is it that my nature is to want to please all and be pleased by nothing? I am in love with the sweetest guy in the world whos only flaw is that he is a follower. A unknown newbe in the cruel game of relationships. What is wrong with this you might ask? The wrong of it is that I too am a follower, the beta of the pack with the heart of an alpha. The follwer thrust into blind leadership, i know i can do it I know my heart will lead me, however what use is the untrod path when one can not see where one is going?

The forbidin blush of a virgin, and those who bring that accursed pinkness! Ugh Why? Things are difficult, why cant i be a vampire and just bite all the people who bring that rush of hot blood to my cheeks then they would not be as lucky to return the blush.

Now I am in another commited relationship I am now comfertable still not the follower but not the absolute alpha I have such unexplainable feelings for him I “wuv” him or so I say. My feelings are all hidden only let out during the sweet kiss the intermingleing spark ignites a fire of passion within my body and mind. Such a rush of relief from the pain of society and reality, how we combine in such a strange way, I will always be here…

For you alone I will always be here.